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Your present circumstances don’t determine where you can go: they merely determine where you start.
“Who motivates you?” “Who is your inspiration?” most people will give the positive answer. Something pretty and well thought out, polished and maybe even rehearsed. But would it be truthful?
Inspiration is not always pretty.
I like to bounce around in blogs and see what’s going on, what other authors and people are talking about in the writing world. Sometimes I comment but most of the time I don’t. It’s not that I do not want to but because some of the commentors are so strong on their stance on grammar that I always fear that I may put a comma in the wrong place and instantly be judged. For life. Blackballed. It’s an awful feeling.
I love to tell stories but sometimes my grammar is not the best that it could be. Am I working on that? Yes. But for now it is still a work in progress. When working around a rotating swing shift schedule and little one’s it’s a little harder than just taking a course.
Anyway…What I have found in my bouncing around are more and more people who say they can not truly respect someone who does not read for entertainment. And yes, everyone is entitled to their opinion and my opinion is that I don’t agree.
One of my biggest inspirations in life was my birth mother. She still to this day can not read. Knowing this as a child I read everything I could get my hands on because I did not want to be her (See, not so pretty inspiration). This lead to my love of reading and (a little further down the line) writing.
I know other people who do not find reading enjoyable because of the frustration’s of Dyslexia, A.D.D. or sometimes it’s just not encouraged or easily accessible.
I was raised in a household where english was a second language (until we got older) and funding was tight (food before books). Day-to-day living was about survival not dreaming. I was lucky enough that the Philadelphia school systems encouraged independent reading. They would actually hold a book fair once or twice a year where you could go to the library, hand in your ticket and get a free book. It was beautiful.
I always picked fiction books. My real life was hard enough without having to read someone elses troubles. Do you know how terrible it is that after reading someone’s heart wrenching/tragic auto-biography you look at the book and think “That’s it. Cry baby.” Let me tell you, you feel like a cold-hearted beast. I feel a little wrong for admitting it now but… I’m being truthful. As a kid this was how I felt.
I would lose myself in far-away lands with monster’s and hero’s on a daily basis. The second I got my new free book I would start reading and wouldn’t put it down until I was done. I walked home reading (dangerous, I know.) I ate diner reading and would even take my bath reading.
I didn’t grow up wanting to be a writer, that was something I discovered later through my love of reading. The love of reading that developed through my childhood. Inspired by a mother who could not read. My grandmother that raised me who could barely read or speak english but worked like a dog. Close relatives that suffered with ADD or Dyslexia but who have many wonderful talent’s that I do not. Suffering through poverty so bad that there was nothing else to do but read and an enviroment so hostile you prayed to be able to escape if only in your mind through a book.
Inspiration is not alway’s pretty.
I’m off to write!
Neighbor: Hi! Where have you been? I haven’t seen you around. (big bright welcoming smile)
You: I’ve been working on a project. (an awkward smile for your half confession)
Neighbor: What kind of project? (head tilting with curiosity)
You: I’m writing a book. (holding breath because this is the first time you have admitted this to anyone other than a close friend and family member)
Neighbor: Oh (brows connecting in disappointment, big bright smile slowly turning into a frown) What’s it about? (cringing)
You: Young Adult Urban Fantasy (biting the bullet and just going for it)
Neighbor: Uh Oookay. Well, it was nice seeing you again and good luck with that. (quick smile and turn to hurry to back to their side of the fence)
Now they will avoid eye contact with you for the next few days, weeks, months or maybe even years. Your hearts in your throat, your guts feel like they’ve been juiced and your confidence has taken a major dip.
As a newbie writer this could be a very uncomfortable conversation. Your confession to the outside world “YES! YOU ARE A WRITER!”
It’s a hard thing to do especially when someone asks “What do you have out?” and your answer is…”Nothing, yet.”
Don’t let it discourage you. If this is something you love, OWN IT! If you write for yourself or to share with others you are a writer. But don’t forget to actually do the writing. It’s kinda important to the declaration.
I really wasn’t comfortable letting the outside world know what I was doing until I had a finished manuscript, over 300 pages filled with one cohesive thought. Now it was only a first draft but it was a whole first draft and man was that a good feeling. Why did I feel so scared? I don’t know. I’m human. I find it easier to tell people my Grandmother was a wrestler then telling them I write. Trust me, telling people your Grandmother is a wrestler will get you some strange looks and comments.
That’s not a problem anymore. I write. It’s not the only thing I do but it is something I love and who doesn’t like talking about things they love.
Today I have decided to start my own blog. No shit right!
What I mean is I used to post at the Davishaigh blog but started feeling guilty using it as a platform for projects that were not Davishaigh related. So, here I am! The Davis from Davishaigh. I will be popping over there to discuss our joint projects that are in the works but here it’s all about Davis.
In case we haven’t met before I am Merced Davis. I’m a mother, a wife and I have a day job outside of the house with a commute that would cause most people to go mad. I’m busy just like the rest of the world but because I love it I also find time to write. I love getting lost in the Supernatural world where anything is possible.
I have “co-authored” a Paranormal Romance and am finishing up a Young Adult Urban Fantasy that has my Beta-Readers pretty excited. I hope to talk about it more in the future and let everyone know how it’s progressing. In the mean time I will be documenting cool things I may find for newbie writers like myself or just mumbling. Everyday’s a gamble!
Now, I’m off to write.